It's either a nervous breakdown without the nerves (emotional breakdown?) or a mid-life crisis. I suppose it could be a reawakening of the soul or perhaps I'm just fucked in the head (FIH).
Do you think infertility predisposes you to be being FIH (duh) or FIH predisposes you to infertility?
Major marital issues over here - we were even separated for about 5 minutes, but then I had a "date" (just a friend!), G freaked and wants now to get back together. So that's where we are - how about you?
I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do, I just know that we all have to wind up happy, because this constantly pissed off/depression crap has been going on for years with infertility - I'm not going to put up with it for the rest of my life in the marriage department. The a/ds are great for stability and staying out of jail purposes, but I'd love to get off them and get rid of the side effects (which aren't awful, but they're still there). We've done the counseling thing and both agreed that that reached the end of its usefulness since I'd leave more depressed and cry on the way home.
I'm still working part time from home and I'm not sure how this is going to pan out. I'm a big communicator (you can get that from how much I've blogged and commented in the last month and a half) and this dude is used to working alone. It's also so random - one week I could work for 20 minutes, then next five hours, the following have meetings, etc. I have thought of getting a job outside of the house (gasp!), but I haven't been able to wrap my head around that thought (does that prove I'm certifiable?)
So that's it - my life in flux. I'd give my right arm to cycle again, I have wet dreams about retrieval (sicko alert!) and I still have "feelings" when I see your random pregnant whores woman, though thanks to the a/ds, I no longer start sobbing uncontrollably. All in all, not too bad, eh?